i don't blog enough, i should blog more often.

i feel God calling my heart back. it's not that i've strayed away and gone into the wild side of drinking and drugs), it's me focusing on so many other things and not focusing on Him.

so for right now, i'm not looking for "the one" (besides, i have this hunch i'm meant to be with Robert Pattinson. I kid I kid...), not focusing on money, the future, etc.

that's already taken care of.

i have to believe it's already taken care of.

in other news: i want to volunteer with kids and do art things with them. i just wonder how i can start this...

such is life.

so i'm here, 1 am (give or take) knowing i should go to sleep because i have a butt load of things to do tomorrow, but i decided to blog for you fine people out there (the three that read this).

i haven't blogged since i made the decision to return to school (new readers go here) so i guess it's time for an update:

schools fine. of course because i didn't know until three weeks before school started that i was actually going back to school, and have to live in a dorm, but that's soon to change (hopefully *fingers crossed*). luckily, i have a normal roommate so that makes things less chaotic.

umhb is super conservative (obviously) but the art department is not (obviously), so there's a perfect balance in my world (sometimes i need a little conservative influence in my life. a lot of times i don't).

oh, to more "important" matters:

so i recently did a self diagnoses (because healthcare isn't cheap) and concluded i'm gluten intolerant.

what does this mean?

basically, i can't eat anything that looks or thinks about touching flour or wheat, rye, barely, and oat.

"oh, well that's like being on the Atkins diet," you think?

yeah...from hell.

obviously, i can't eat bread, pasta or most cereals (however...i can still kick it with frosted flakes...so i'm happy).

but then there are those other foods you don't think about (like packaged fajita chicken. yeah, non breaded fajita chicken...so angry) that i can't eat either. boo...

so why put myself in the world of no delicious pastries?

i've had some health issues, and every time i went to the doctor, i wasted 800 dollars to be told i was "fine".

i got horribly sick after eating delicious goodness of sandwiches, cookies, potato soup (which was thickened with flour), chicken (yes, poor innnocent Bush's Chicken) and Cinnamon Toast Crunch.
after talking to one of my friends, she told me, "oh you could simply have a gluten intolerance" (but it's actually not "simple").

now i'm adjusting to life with no gluten. the hardest thing is going to walmart and realizing 90 percent of the food here cannot enter my body.

meanwhile, my stomach is talking to me asking,
"when are you going to feed me?"

and i answer:
"whenever i can find something to put in you. now shut up and take it!" (don't act like you don't have a conversation with your organs because i know you do).

so i'm trying this out for a month. if everything works out well, this will be my lifestyle.

i've been warned there will be tears and frustration (been there, done that, more to come) but over time i should feel so much better.

on the inside i feel a bit better. i'm not having the pain i use to which is good and everyone is telling me not to buy clothes while my body's getting adjusted ('scuse me? you mean no target for a while? sad!).

to sum up the first month, arting is fun, and i feel like one of the cool kids (but i'm NOT cool); my friends are more than amazing, my room is teeny tiny with a roommate that sings 'don't be tardy to the party' in the morning when i first wake up and i've kissed my beloved foods goodbye for a while.

all in all, i'd give this experience a 90 (a deduction of 10 points for having to give up foods such as cinnamon toast crunch).

i'll try to update more. try is the keyword here.

much love.
C

ps. i'd like to thank kanye for not interupting my blog entry.

ok, ok...lame.

midterms, finals, homework, etc.

i'm going back to it.
the college lifestyle has called me back, for a year.
In a week and few days, I'm headed south 35, 40 minutes past Waco (I love Central Texas apparently) to attend UMHB and get my second bachelor's.

"but you should get a job. you're only adding to debt."

yeah, yeah, yeah...I know.

here's the deal (and for the few reading, you all know)
graduated in december.
moved back home with mom.
looked for a job.
found a new calling.
going insane because NOTHING was happening.
didn't want to feel useless anymore.
needed a way out.
joked with the bestie about going to school with her just to get away.
the joke turns serious when everyone around me is doing bigger and better things.
i want to do bigger and better things.
i apply.
God works everything out.

this all happens within a month (maybe).

i'm relieved to step into the world of papers, projects and late night studies.

I have a plan, and part of that plan includes going back to school.

how crazy is that?

last school year i was ready to escape, now i'm excited to go back.

but i know i can't be a professional student forever (or maybe I can...hahahahaha! no j/k).

no, but i am going to grad school for graphic design (magazine publishing or master's of art education. those are my top three options).

i'm excited.

i'll be attending umhb in the fall and while i'll enjoy a football team that actually wins games, i will ALWAYS be a Baylor Bear (i have no choice, I'm still paying them back haha).

i guess i'll end with Sic 'Em Crusaders?

haha no. no i won't.

tag you're it!

The rules are:
1. List 10 honest things about yourself that your blogging friends do not know about you.
2. Give the award away to five bloggers.
3. Let them know they've received the award.





Here are my 10 honest things...some are a bit weird! Don't say I didn't warn you:

1. I can't stand a cluttered room. To de-clutter, I turn to Ikea catalogs for ideas.

2. I have a fear of being pregnant and not knowing until I have to go to the bathroom. I watch too much 'I didn't know I was pregnant.'

3. I hated high school. I thought I hated college, but realize I want to go back. I miss it...a lot.

4. I only like the feeling of having a crush. you know, when you and a best friend knows but he has no clue. once it's out in the open, it sucks and the thrill is gone.

5. I'm not really a fan of celebrity gossip and entertainment world as most people claim. Most things I find out are from CNN or the daily news (because they do have an entertainment portion).

6. I want to marry John Mayer's talent, not his ego.

7. There's a thrill in running errands. It's weird, but I love it.

8. I LOVE Robert Pattinson. A lot! But I will NOT go and jump on him while he's filming a movie, or chase him down. If he's ever in town, I'll just go to the best pub in town, because he's probably there...drinking...a lot.

9. When I was 4, I saw the making of 'Thriller' and the video for the first time, late at night by myself and wasn't scared at all. I made up my mind that I wanted to dance and one day tour with MJ. I saw 'Miss You Much' by Janet, realized they were related and cried because I wasn't a part of that family.

Remember, I was 4.

10. I absolutely hate chocolate. I absolutely love chocolate chip cookies (and I could eat the dough without thinking about cooking it, but that's so unhealthy...right?).
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innie minnie miny moe... this award goes to:

AJ
Courtney
Daryle
Taylor
Bri

Matthew 5:4 Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

i'm late.

i'm going to embark on a purpose driven life.

yes, i'm aware i'm 5 years late on this (maybe 6, but who's counting?) but i found my mom's second copy of the book so i took it off her hands and onto my bookshelf.

besides, i need to read about real adult things, not dreaming for a guy to be edward cullen (because i can't want a vampire. they aren't real).

i reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeallly dislike you.

i know I said I wouldn't update this blog, but i'm going to, because what i have to say on here can't be said on a business blog.

i'm one of the people who have been updating my twitter statuses and facebook about michael jackson because he was so much a part of my childhood.

anyway, i saw this on BET red carpet before their award show (don't EVEN get me started on that).

Joe Jackson (the dad) made a red carpet appearance (why? who the hell knows) and talked about the death of mj.

He act like he had NO responsibility in the craziness of his life (when he in fact was the main source: I can post links to interviews and advise you to watch the Jackson 5 movie).

This "disgusting excuse of a man" verbally abused him, physically abused him, never allowed him to have a childhood, etc and wants to walk the red carpet like, oh, that's my son, and no one appreciated him when he was a live.

dumb ass, if we didn't, how the hell would he be the biggest artist of our time?

anyway, this video really pissed me off, and no matter what you think of MJ, you would agree, plugging in your business ventures on TV 4 days after your son's death is distasteful.